Google yourself

OK! Tell me..

Have you ever Google-d yourself up?

well i did. It's interesting actually.

You read what other people blogged about you.

You find out loads of things.

and so i Google-d a few people who has unique name, or at least those who doesnt have common names. It's very interesting. From cousins blog to facebook to notes to Whosgoing

seriously, internet has the pro and con.

we all know the pro[s] and the con[s] but the biggest problem, it creates your shit a hell bigger lot than it is now. hah! so if you want to bitch about me, just place my name in your blog. Hah. Like i care what you think of me. really. Ive stopped worrying what, especially girls, think of me because it's an emotional hassle.

the only time i start worrying when these foolish ideas start to worm its way into my friendship with anyone. when you dont have much friends, you're afraid to lose them.

i admit im not a perfect friend. im shit when it comes to "maintaining" friendship. opps, error. maintaining any sort of relationship. i need someone patient and "stronger" around me. that's why some people thinks im choosy when it comes with friends. that's why some idiots think i only befriended with boys.

the problem lies with some girls who refuses to know me and start all this wild imagination about me, calling me a big flirt. i dont. ask these boys i befriended with. they say im a boy. in their eyes, im so like a "guy" that when i wore dresses, they start laughing their arses off -- "Ain, you looked pretty BUT WTTTFF? Why are you wearing a dress?"

I realised my lack of girl friends. i realised how a significant amount of girls are intimidated by my presence. i realised how some girls think im bossy. thinks all the negative.

i dont know why and really, im not sure whether i want to know the reasons.

i used to get jealous by my sister's huge array of girl friends. how they had all these "All girls party". i wished.. i wished i had that privileged to have some sort parties with a bunch of girls.

but i know i cant. i know i can never blend into that all girls thing. i know im not being myself. i know i would never squeal over those lil furs you surround for parties. i know i would never appreciate a teddy bear. in fact, i loathe it. i wish i could.

i have loads of guy friends coz it's simple. you can refused all form of contacting for 2 months but when you meet, no signs of bitchiness. just pure excitement of reunion. it's just so simple to reconnect at the same level it was.

anyway, my point is.. google yourself.
you start to realise.. maybe justttt maybe, you might want to remove yourself from some sites that just made you look pretty bad.

Ain is bugging you on 2009-11-17 at 12:35 a.m.

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