Lalaland and mind tricks

listening: all the right moves - one republic.


I have been extremely tired, asexual too.

Doesn't help that I've been feeling constraint and restricted.
At workplace - I barely know what's the weather out there. From the MRT exit straight to work, I see nothing else but walls and more walls.

I walked around aimlessly and cant stop wondering - what the fuck am I doing here?

I hated the fact that i know i hated it soo much but im still doing it. Im in a stupid lalaland.

My current pest, turned out to be in a shorter time frame than i thought it would have been. Things are left hanging and confusing twist.

I hated the fact that i know it should end but i cant just seem to let go. Im in a stupid lalaland.

Recently, i haven't been getting a good sleep. i keep waking up for no reasons. i keep waking up as if i needed to do something urgent. im getting paranoid over nothing. and i long for a deep sleep..

i hated this paranoia because i dont know what is it that's truly bugging me. im getting restless. i feel like im breaking out soon. and i have a feeling when it does happen, it may not be a good thing afterall.


Have you ever dreamt of yourself? like you see yourself sleeping and you woke up in the exact position that you had dreamt? or you keep waking up, dream after dream before you really do get in touch with the reality?

That's what happening to me. I see myself...

Today i had a morbid vision. I was going to be in a bus collision. I dont know if that will happen but that image kept replaying and yes, im scaring myself.

i dont understand this. do you see yourself too?

Ain is bugging you on 2009-10-26 at 11:46 p.m.

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